I don’t have any huge hang-ups and I’ve managed to reduce most of my baggage to a carry-on. Being single isn't fun when you don’t want to be. Entrepreneurs are responsible for their organizations ability to pay bills, pay employees, pay themselves and still generate a profit.
I’ve also had to admit I’ve been less confident than I should have been.
I believed I needed to prove my value by fixing the most brilliant, beautiful object in the room, rather than recognizing my own worth as a subject.
All I did was point to each opportunity and facilitate things I was better at; things that were more straightforward for me, a native speaker and a Westerner. I tried to “do better” by dating wildly different men rather than working on myself.
After a rather regrettable rebound with a man I nicknamed “Bad Decision,” I dated a string of people I will call “complicated,” with all of that word’s casual irony.
Basilisk-eyed Lotharios, I told myself, were intriguing, rather than insane.
I believed otherwise nice men who insisted they were ready to have a relationship, even if they were clearly not. I can’t keep my own secrets and my face gives everything I feel away. And yet I dated men who lived for obfuscation, men who invited chaos.
There is almost no separation between them and their businesses and they are always working, even if that work is simply thinking about their business.
So much of our business is our life that we tend to approach relationships as business transactions, too. Christina says that entrepreneurs are perfectionists and, therefore, rather than looking for love, they are “seeking great love.
I never quite got there, of course, but working on them meant I didn’t have to work on myself. Admitting to my own role in these relationships has begun to free me from my worst predilections.